I would do anything to get my ex boyfriend back, please help.?

This is really long but please, please bear with me.

My boyfriend broke up with me six months ago. He told me he “just wasn’t feeling it and he hadn’t been feeling it for a while” and that “he wasn’t ready for a relationship.” We were together for nearly a year and it was a pretty intense relationship. It moved very fast from the start (meeting each other’s family/friends etc) but that was his doing, not mine. He got very serious very fast and despite me being a bit wary of relationships, I went with it because I felt such a strong connection to this guy (I know it sounds cheesy but I really felt fireworks when I first laid eyes on him in a bar and couldn’t take my eyes off him and the feeling was mutual). We had a lot in common and had great fun together (chemistry was great too!) and spent a good deal of time together. The problem was, as we’re both very sociable and outgoing, most of that time was spent doing group stuff; either with his friends and family or mine. It was the only thing we ever fought about. I wanted to spend time alone together, which we rarely did, and he always promised that he’d make the effort which he would for a week or two after our talk but then things would go back to group stuff. I should probably point out that whenever these discussions arose, I would calmly explain that alone time was important to me and he would agree that we would spend more time together. There was never any shouting or nastiness. The last two months together, he sometimes made stupid comments that would hurt my feelings; nothing vindictive or mean, just thoughtless. I didn’t say anything until something really bad happened in my life and he wasn’t really there. I got the obligatory hug and the ‘I’m sorry’ but that was it. I called him on it one night and he said “I don’t want you to rely on me in case I break up with you.” I suppose that should have been my clue that all wasn’t right with him but I was so shocked at his comment that I didn’t call him on it for a week. When I did, we sat down and had a big talk. I told him how much he had hurt me and how I was feeling taken for granted. I repeated back to him what he had said to me and he was genuinely horrified (I could see it on his face). I don’t think he realized exactly how bad what he had said was till then. Anyway, I asked him if he wanted to break up because I had been feeling so taken for granted and he emphatically told me ‘no.’ He promised he would make more of an effort (even thanked a friend of mine at a party the following night for calming me down (I was considering drastic action) and said “I’m not going to screw up again”) and I think he did – in his own way – but nothing changed. A month later, the same issue came up on the phone one night and I had got bad news that day so I was pretty drained and didn’t even have the energy to put up a fight. He said he didn’t understand why the alone time was that important to me and I said “but the fact that it is important to me should be enough” to which he said “it wasn’t to him and he didn’t understand it.” Then he said if he wasn’t making me happy then maybe we should break up. I asked him if that was what he wanted and he said no. We batted back and forth for ages, neither one of us wanting to break up and getting more and more upset (both of us were crying, not angry). Eventually I asked him if he cared about me enough to make it work and he said he didn’t know. I told him “I guess that’s my answer.” I told him I would drop back his car (he had given me his old car to drive when mine broke down beyond repair and wanted me to keep it but I had insisted the car was just on loan until I got my own and kept it in his name) and he told me to keep the car. I told him I didn’t want the damn car, that it was him I wanted because I loved him (that was the first time I had said it). He was stunned and said “what?” to which I replied “I love you. There, I said it.” He was shocked and said he wasn’t there yet. When he asked if he could see me, I told him it was too painful and that I was going to end the call. Crying (he was too), I said goodbye and hung up.

He texted me the next day to ask me if I was okay and said “last night was like some bad dream.” I replied that I wasn’t okay and I was hurt that I obviously meant so little to him that we broke up over something so small. He said something like it wasn’t small and we broke up because we weren’t working/couldn’t agree (I can’t remember clearly) and I can’t even remember what I texted back (it wasn’t mean but it wasn’t nice either). He didn’t reply. Five days later, I was so miserable that I texted him and told him I missed him and if the offer to meet up still stood, could we meet up and talk. He replied straight away saying he’d wanted to call but had thought I wouldn’t want to speak to him. We arranged to meet up and I thought we were going to work things out but he wanted to give me back my stuff and talk because he “felt bad about the way

in most cases, the person who broke the bond is the only person who can rebuild the bridges .. no matter how hard you try or how much it eats you up inside by being apart. They have to realise that you ARE "the one"